Archive for the 'elysia' Category
I think slowly the rift will heal. We have worried so much about being wrong, or conversely going backwards, going further away from some destination. It is in our nature to worry, but today was sunny and I spent fifteen minutes just being with my own love and there are so many things that are okay.
And healing comes like this, I think, in building underground for so long and then in little spurts that go also backwards, jagged graphs, circling the point. Maybe the circle we’ve taken hasn’t been something to regret. Even aside from maybe it was necessary. Maybe some kind of perspective is building more each pass.
Continue reading ‘you’re going to be fine’
i realized that the loneliness doesn’t really have to do with whether someone is there. i think that loneliness or terror and pain, is all that there is. how tired i am of the dichotomy. and when i hope and pray to be hurt, it is because being hurt is the only way not to be lonely. when someone hurts you, they are paying attention to you. and i know my conception is faulty, because the pain is desperately lonely too. it’s so crucial and i don’t know how to escape it. i don’t know how to make it better. i am so tired, so, so tired. all of us are. the exhaustion and the aloneness is all that is crucial to our world, all that maybe has been ever.
Continue reading ‘if you see him, run for cover’
