our society doesn’t do a very good job of teaching us how to be sad. how is it that you are supposed to put in the time when you are giving the feelings their space? especially if you don’t have the energy to be creative? they keep yelling at me inside to not try to fix it… and i want to be good… but what is it we are supposed to do?
Archive for March, 2007
i am overwrought. everything was ok until about yesterday, when we started to feel increasingly gloomy about our ridiculous workload. we made some time to be sad without trying to fix it – that was really hard, but i guess it helped. we just got under the covers and cried. not the kind of thing we generally do. but we are trying so hard here.
today is going to be mildly upsetting. we have to bring our guitar to school, and drag it through latin, and everything. i want to buy a gig bag so i can bring it on my scooter. it makes everything so very much easier to be able to scoot. but i’m doubting that i can find a way to strap my big hard case to it somehow.
Continue reading ’somewhere right in front of me and out of my sight’
i feel lost in the whirlwind of today. i have 45 more minutes to sit here to wait for aeron, so i might as well try to write myself into some better degree of sanity. this may have a bit much of a flavor of note-to-self, so it may be boring.
even when it’s really good, i guess, it’s not that good…
also, we got the sims 2 seasons expansion pack and it is really pretty and fun! we like the snow.
two more days before school starts! and with the coming of spring quarter rushes in the put-off list of things to do. namely, applying to graduate school. oh, and we really wanted the house to be clean. oh well. there’s no such thing as a perfect clean new leaf.
we teeter wildly. it’s not really ok. but nor is there anything really wrong. right now we’re ok. the quarter is over so very soon. finals suck, but we’ll get through them. they’re better than homework anyway. the house sucks, but we’ll be feeling better soon, and there will be time to clean. nothing’s wrong. nothing’s pressing. we had a really good therapy session yesterday. we are facing forward.
