Archive for October, 2006
i don’t even know how good the island/non-island distinction is at this point. it’s supposed to be very good. and yes i don’t remember from when sg is out. but sometimes i think i hear echoes… drifting along on some [K]-related thread. they make me sad. really bad times, right now. really tense and tippable. i am trying to honor the part of what the ones have done that can help me. to be here, to be functional, to not delve or let the sadscared reach me. but i don’t know if that is the best plan. i guess i don’t know much of anything. decisions are so hard these days. i want to be connected with the system. i can’t do all this on my own. i’m not that strong.
this is triggering. don’t read if that will bother you.
oh my blood rolls heavy, heavy in my veins. oh it is harvest time it is rich and ripe for the picking oh i can taste it. i think there should be more room. we have jumped very pretty in your dance, now i’m reduced to begging your fucking permission to be red. to be real. i could feel you thinking about acquiesing. please, yes, please don’t think about what the stupid world would say. think about sharing with me the warm, the red, the escape. come with me and for a moment be in the drop riven from the body, swirl warm and expanding into the clear water. we can build our whole world there for a moment or two. oh, please.
