Archive for August, 2006
i’m bad i’m bad i’m bad i’m bad i’m bad i’m bad i’m scared she will be mad at us we missed our appointment she will be so mad at us i hate us i hate us i hate us i hate us
aeron would say take an anxiety pill
i was afraid the summer wouldn’t be long enough to rejuvenate me so that i would be ready again for school, but the most fun part of my day anymore is when i do my flashcards. and i’ve started going through the latin book. there is a section of “self-tutorial” exercises, with a key, and i’ve been doing all of those. it’s very satisfying. between the spanish and greek that we’ve had, i think latin will be very straightforward. it’s so exciting to think of doing it with aeron, working out the puzzles of translation sentences together, making him & me flashcards together.
dialogue 8/28/06
agenda: check in, see if anyone has any desires for the evening
Continue reading ‘it’s ok to be short’
i am tired and bewildered. i am all empty tonight, unsure; of course, this is the standard. i never have words or decision or grace. this day is like this summer: stressful and exhausting, but not really all that full. i had a psychiatrist appointment, that is all. went to the library and the pharmacy, and came home.
he raised my wellbutrin to 600mg, which is higher than the highest recommended dosage. we’ll see if it helps. we’ll see if we go crazy with side effects. i have to try it for two weeks, so i must be very good about taking my pills in the morning!
it’s hard, to be assigned a journal entry a day. i realize more and more how parched i am for words, how little i know to say about anything. we went to the mall yesterday (northgate), and that was hard. just a long, long day. it kind of sucks to go so far away. i really need to get better at scooting farther away. i don’t know if i’ll ever go that far, but i hope i will. it’s easy to get stuck to a safe zone.
we’ve been scared, easily startled, everything is hard. the birthday is coming up. but i don’t know what to say about any of it.
i guess some days, maybe this will have to be enough…
dialogue 8/26/06
agenda:
1. talk about to do list for today
2. additional time requests
3. any needs of insiders
4. feelings about the birthday? (if there is time)
dialogue 8/25/06
open to all system members
topics:
- dialogue/meeting format
- reactions to therapy & group yesterday (esp. anger/parenting)
- who would like to help with the to do list
- who wants time out
