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Archive for February, 2005
someone in our system tried to kill the body the night before last, or sort of tried. was indifferent to the possibility. they opened two veins several times. it was really bad. we’re going to the hospital, leaving tonight. we shouldn’t be gone too long, since the average stay is like 10 days.. take care everyone.
(i really hope this is the last hospital visit in our life! heh…)
how terrified i am. words escaping me. the gradual resettling of life. here with these familiar rough rocks and cold drippy bars, these rusted locks. putting us each far apart from each other is new, but not unexpected. trying to make sense of things. trying to figure out how bad it really is. utterly self-absorbed! hey, at least we’ve been painting. so it’s not that bad? i guess?
we weren’t.aren’t allowed to talk, type, write, you know the drill. but… what else can they do after the herculean robbing of the island? all they need to know now is how to keep riven away, and we’ve taught a trick or two to them, how to make a mirror have one door only. conveniently located. i witnessed one of them, who astonishingly seemed to be a girl, sadly flirting with suicide thoughts. thoughts with mere whispers of a gesture, pale shadows. scratches on the wrist, burning nose from breathing in water. very clearly meant as statements or questions or just thoughts… nothing more. i felt sorry for her.
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