Written on December 31, 2002 by kerry.
so here they are. i like my idea of a monthly, weekly, and yearly system. i like this opportunity and i am going to allow myself to have it. i am going to allow myself to be ridiculous, to be over-the-top, something that all my friends would scoff at. these i am going to keep, and they are clear enough so that i know what to do every step of the way to keep them. no “lose weight this year” for me. i will be specific. it will be easy to determine if i have kept my resolutions or not.
i considered making a special “resolutions” section of the site, similar to the progress page, and i may still do that. but i’d feel too silly, and it might be too hard to set up, and etc, etc. they’re more personal than that – something that would go in a journal.
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Written on December 29, 2002 by kerry.
in no particular order.
1. call drc to see if they need a letter from jayla, or what
2. get new sticker on student id
3. do the dishes
4. organize desk drawers
5. clean out old desk drawer
6. start practicing guitar again
7. start exercising again
8. collect holiday money into one place
9. deposit checks in the bank
10. clean out email inbox
Continue reading ‘101 things to do’
mostly these are pictures of the road trip down highway one we took with our mom.
Continue reading ‘the holidays’
Written on December 28, 2002 by kerry.
january swift approaches, and so does my fluttery excited stomach my high hopes. my mouth stinks of food but it doesn’t touch me. having traveled, i love the town i call home more than ever. santa cruz, santa cruz, santa cruz, it’s a chant, and i throw my arms wide with abandon and resolution and firmness of purpose.
Continue reading ‘preliminary resolutions’
Written on December 23, 2002 by claire.
today was a day where bed felt better than getting up, which is most people’s fairly regular reality, but not mine. my obligations are slim and my tolerance for empty time as slim, so when i’m awake i rush off to the computer or a book i’m reading, or something. but my mom is getting here tonight, which meant the house needed to have some major cleaning done.
Continue reading ‘a kind of happiness’
Written on December 22, 2002 by claire.
so i finished bringing the photo journal up to date, and i feel a pleasant, if slight, sense of accomplishment. never mind that my mother is coming over tomorrow and the bathroom desperately needs cleaning, the laundry needs doing, and every dish in the house is dirty. i have an archive, solid and even beautiful at times. i can’t ever quite decide what the best format/resolution is for the big pop-ups. i added a new entry today and left them full-size, because half-size seems small somehow. after all, if people don’t want to download a big image, they can just feast their eyes on the reasonably large thumbnails, right?
Continue reading ‘our shortest day’
just a few silly little pictures to show off our haircuts from november.
i’m planning on trying to post a lot more often to this journal, with shorter entries. a single picture that i want to show off should be sufficient for an entry, shouldn’t it?
in a dream world there would be a daily picture. maybe someday, soon.
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Written on December 20, 2002 by claire.
i’ve spent an evening doing various moveable type-ly things. the archives are now in a much more manageable format – not great, but better. it’s hard to be manageable when you don’t really understand how the system quite works, and you have 13 years of journal entries to link to. but it’s better.
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it didn’t happen to me. it didn’t happen to me. it didn’t happen to me. it didn’t happen to me. i know it for a fact. i don’t need to wonder. i know it for a fact. i’m not giving up this viewpoint. i’m going to stick with it and i’m going to show everybody. i’m going to live in the present and make myself special.
Continue reading ‘no.’
Written on December 19, 2002 by claire.
i want to do everything at once. i want to be utterly transformed right now, i want to realize all of the bright special dormant things in me, i want to be productive and happy and not bogged down. there’s a new loneliness lately, but my life is just a long discovery of lonelinesses. i can’t seem to be as productive as motivated as i’d like, lately. there is the new year we are holding up in front of ourselves like a beacon. but if i can’t start now, why do i think i could start then?
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