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tweets for the week of 2011-07-31

Written on July 31, 2011 by tweets. 0 Comments

had a scooter accident on the way to work, my worst yet… shaken up but no worse injury to me or the bike than skinned knees and elbows #
now i'm sitting here at work in pain (no access to bandaids or anything) and scared and shaky and not sure what to do )o: #
all my muscles hurt. #
is running the dishwasher! #
it's been a sore, stiff day and as the evening comes we are getting depressed. we don't deserve this apartment #
trying to stay positive. it is sunny, we got some things taken care of, we will be ok. #
i have too much stuff there is nowhere to put it #

tweets for the week of 2011-07-24

Written on July 24, 2011 by tweets. 0 Comments

kind of depressed today. but trying to live through it. #
I am mostly on google+ now. dm me if you want my username or an invite. #
missin my @lazyqueer … tv isn't the same without them. #
wonder if you can have sympathy cramps from a mile away… uuuugh i feel gross #
also i got soooooooo depressed i think i should die #
there's no point in anything, we will never see @lazyqueer again, what's the point #
i really, really hoped my headache wouldn't be here in the morning… #

tweets for the week of 2011-07-17

Written on July 17, 2011 by tweets. 0 Comments

i need to eat and i wish i were dead #
is in so so so much pain )o: #
crap, my life is over #
getting drunk alone… feels a little pointless. oh well. #
feeling mildly suicidal and cricket is angry at nobody for no reason and that sucks #
ok cricket is angry at everybody for no reason #
the time goes soooo much faster when i have work to do! #

tweets for the week of 2011-07-10

Written on July 10, 2011 by tweets. 0 Comments

trying to practice not-doing. #
has a pdr appt tomorrow at 3. don't let me forget. #
i am such a fucking joke. didn't even realize how dependent i was for help with food & supplies like meds. no need to help just mad at self #
very depressed and feel pointless. wish we could die. #
had to drive about an hour home from work today as a parade i didn't know was there routed me clear into queen anne to get home #
i seriously tried to turn on every street but couldn't even when i got to denny, had to go clear around the space needle #
for context, the drive is normally 5-10 minutes. #
if i had known i could have taken a different way home. who knew that marching bands were going to tie up all of seattle today? #
i am the one with the scooter. i should be the one to do the travelling. i hate myself #
practicing breathing when i send an email and letting go ownership of it. i did it, i can release it, it's not mine anymore. #tao #
finally home. i guess i'm in too much pain for ballet tonight, but pooh #
depression is a fucking bitch #
wants to cancel therapy but really needs to go. but there is no will or energy to work with #
people say what's the point you don't need to pretend anymore after you've been left behind #
we wanna play rock band so take that bigs plus we worked hard in therapy #
forgot how i suck at packing and hate it. sigh… #
i've said it before, i'll say it again: sweat is the worst thing about testosterone. no contest. #
sometimes we get angry that life has to be so hard for the people we love. and ourselves. but especially the people we love #

tweets for the week of 2011-07-03

Written on July 3, 2011 by tweets. 0 Comments

on my short lunch break between work and therapy. whew. #
left ballet early. body is killing me. alone forever. going to try a cool bath #
holy crap I can't concentrate. salary negotiations are way too grown-up for me. #
should not be awake. #
just had a super scary meeting. so much adrenaline #
I GOT THE APARTMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #
forgot my phone. #
i am very anxious and my head is killing me. #
home tired overwhelmed. #