well, it hasn’t been every day, but the schedule is still helpful. we’re doing a lot better than we were last week.
i found i was more reluctant to meditate and journal today than to clean or whatever. i have to remind myself that it doesn’t need to be a lot. i just like to check in, to have an archive…
i went to ballet yesterday! it was a beautiful day, a very simple scoot. i could have walked, perhaps – and maybe eventually i should, since it’s $4 to park. i think it went as well as it could have really. it was a little confusing how to get in, but once i did and asked if there was a ballet class here, she showed me where to go. i told her i didn’t know if i could stay through the whole class, and she said basically "sure you can!"… so i did. but it wasn’t actually as bad as it could have been. i think she was paying attention to people’s energy levels. and it was a good thing i could stay through, since she didn’t want me to pay until the end. but that was a little convenient after all since by the end i knew i wanted to come back, so i bought a 5-class card. there were maybe ten students, and apparently three of us were new. i hung back, and she made me come forward a couple of times. i was impressed with myself for being able to make it through the whole class. i thought i was the worst one there, though not by much; but she said at one point i should go in front of someone else because i was better than she was. and she learned our names right off. i don’t know, my thoughts are jumbly, but i did really love it and want to come back. i just really love to dance.
my brain won’t settle.
on monday nancy asked if we had anyone that could come out to handle shopping errands, which we hate and have a lot of trouble doing. for some reason chris came forward; maybe because he was already closer from driving the scooter? but it helped a lot. it would be so great if we could remember more often to use our multiplicity to our advantage; it really is an asset. we have therapy again today – finally, a sunny day for th…[
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